Elder Thorup

Why is it that even though a mission is such a good thing, it is so hard to let go?

Well Brad is finally gone. And with him going we find a big hole in our hearts. Yes, he is going to do good and to teach people the gospel so that they can learn the truth. But why does it hurt so much? I know that I will see him again and that he is only gone for a little while, but that knowledge does not help stop the flow of tears.

On Tuesday before Brad was set apart, we were at my mom's house, Lydia was standing in a corner trying not to let anyone see that she was crying. That made me start crying and we sat there hugging for a while. I then had an idea for her, so we sat down and listened to "I'll See You In A While". It made us cry even more, which was not the effect I wanted. The song is about leaving for a few years and not saying goodbye just saying see you in a while, because we will see you again. I was crying yesterday as Brad was heading for the car to go to the MTC Lydia came over to me and told me " Jen Jen remember it is see you in a while, not goodbye." How greatful I am to her for being so strong and comforting to me. Even though I should be the one comforting her.

Brad has been a best friend for over 19 years. It is like I am losing a part of myself for 2 years. But the people in the Dominican Republic need him more than I do. So I will wait patiently here for him to return. And I will offer any support I can to him. We will all miss him so much.

If I am like this for my brother how will I be for Hayden?